There is two kinds of it. Physical strength and mental strength. Many people define strength as how much they can benchpress or how long the can run. Others like to equate strength with their morality. The dictionary defines strength as, "the quality or state of the being strong or mental force/vigor ". No definition is incorrect.
I would like to define strength based on my grandmother. She is the epitomy of strength. She accepted her fate of death from cancer. Death is something that we all know is near and fear. My dear Tayta is ready for it. However, she is in undeniable and in horrible pain. Her cancer is an aggresive killer shutting down her system. She is bed-ridden and we hover around her and talk in hushed tones. She is not eating or drinking water and only communicates with pointing her hands. Her cancer makes her vomit frequently and the morphine and other painkillers she is on makes her very tired and sleepy.
Yet, in spite of all this, she fights to pray. She has enough courage and strength to let her do her duties. Her face is at peace when she finishes her prayers in bed. She is probably saving her energy for when her sons come from Syria to see her, (InshAllah, in time!). She is probably at peace to know her youngest grandchild, Baby #27, will be born tomorrow. She even has enough strength to keep a sense of humor.
Its not easy to leave your most loved ones. Yet, my Tayta is teaching us how to do it with grace, faith and strength. I only ask God to give my Tayta, His most loyal follower, additional strength to ease her greatest suffering.
3 comments:
Isn't there anything she can take for nausea?I hear there is pretty good medicine that will take care of nausea that patients go through after chemotherapy.
And the morphine she takes must take care of her pain.It would be so good if she did not suffer,anymore.
That is great to hear of her strength,let her know how much you are learning about strength and courage by watching her.And she is at peace that is so important. I'll pray for her,you and the family.
You are a remarkable young lady,youself,you know,and I'm sure your grandma sees that.
Bella Crystal: Thank you for your kind words. She is taking things for nausea. Unfortunately chemotherapy was not an option for her situation since her cancer was very aggressive and sudden. Thank you for your prayers, its very much appreciated.
I've never seen someone stronger then your tayta dandoon. May Allah bless her peacefulness. It is amazing me how she's trying to give it her best. How she's throwing out wisdom whenever there's a chance and in ANY subject. I will never forget what she told me "Friends are a mirror" and i'll be your reflection whenever you need me. I'll reflect upon you whatever you're in need if its happiness, strength, love or peacfulness. Im here.
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